One of the reasons I wanted to make this website was to show the raw and real moments that someone experiencing trauma is living through behind the curtains of what they show. For me, one, I believe that everyone is struggling with their own loads in life and I do not want to be someone in their life that does anything but adds support, love, and happiness. I never want to be one more burden on them. Next, when I do open up about what I want or need to those closest to me, it’s not met with open arms and I end up leaving the conversation feeling more deflated…

I’m working on a larger post that is going to take me a bit to finish up. While I’m uploading some videos for it and trimming the fat from them, I thought I should take a break to put up some of my video journals that I’ve made since being back home with my parents in Virginia. I think my plan for this site will be to put edited video journals with posts, but possibly leaving the uncut video journal up on the Youtube page, so that anyone struggling with something similar can see just the full spectrum of emotions in one video and the steam of consciousness. I hope…

“Triggered” has become one of those overused words the last couple of years, and it makes me nervous to use any word that really makes the circles in the world of domestic abuse because I know that for me, I almost shutdown when the first words out of every single post I read are, “my narcissistic ex”. I find myself raising an antenna to the next words that come out of that person’s mouth. Why? – no idea; and it makes me furious with myself, because if I’m being honest, I want to start my story with what I’m pretty sure too – “my narcissistic husband…” lol. I don’t delve…

I’ve been in wet, wild, wonderful West Virginia visiting family with my mother over Mother’s Day weekend. This means we stay with my Aunt Aly and that my mom and I share a bed. I had come to bed early to work some on an email to my lawyer for my divorce while the sisters sat out and chatted and took “walks” around the inside rooms of the house to “get their steps in”. lol. I had just searched “domestic violence” into my podcast app a couple of nights earlier when I wasn’t sleeping to listen to while I tried to nod off. One of the ones that I had…